I'm watching S6 E23:  Making Waves Teen Mom OG - I guess I went through some crazy times.  MY dad died, husband left, lost job, car got repoed, so I had no cable!!!  I think during this time, I just didn't see the show.  So it's new to me.  I've always had ideas about the show.  I just heard Catelynn ask, "Do you have enough alcohol?" and Maci replied, "No, we're gonna need more."  While just before that in an episode she talks about how Rhine, Ryan is doing bad things, "drugs" and if something happens to Bentley she'll never forgive herself.  I'm trying to figure out how Rhine's drug abuse is going to effect Bentley who spends like 5 minutes with Ryan at his parent's house!  

Catelynn just said about Carley, "I could have been super selfish and brought her home."  Um, Carley's your CHILD and you DIDN'T bring her home yet you had more children!  I'm glad Cate and Tyler have changed their view about adoption.  I've always felt that if a couple REALLY cares about the young couple and the child they would do everything they can to KEEP the child with the couple!  Swooping in to kidnap the child isn't a solution!  I will never not feel that Tyler pressured Cate to give Carley up!  We all saw what was filmed.  Tyler didn't even want Cate to hold Carley or spend any time with her because she'd change her mind.  The kids had to go across the street to make the drop off.  The hospital wouldn't allow Brandon and Tina to take the child from the hospital.  I think what happened was a mistake.  I can speak about this as an adopted person.  I've always felt that it's better when a couple chooses a child from one already abandoned!!!  I was abandoned in a social service agency in a crib.  There was no flipping through books to choose the BEST or WEALTHIEST family.  

I'm watching Farrah at her soon to be failed yogurt shop.  I'm really wondering about Simon.  I don't know how he was off camera.  I know personally, I think his body is really banging!!  Farrah said he treated her poorly.  She treated him poorly on camera.  I know Farrah has deep set emotional issues.  It's sad.  

Watching Amber with Matt, it's kind of scary.  When he breaks the wall and tells the producers that he's done with her because she refused to marry in in Vegas.  That was insane!  I think all he sees is her money.  I know she goes on to meet that other guy she has a kid with.  I understand Bipolar Disorder.  I know Amber has some other sort of diagnosis.  It's really sad to see Leah with Amber, happy.  I can't stand how Gary kept harping on how Leah has to "brush her teeth," as if not brushing your teeth for a day or two is going to have any effect on anything!  

I'm also listening to Relevant Radio.  I like to listen.  I don't believe everything.  

I've gotta "clean" my place by Thursday.  I'm feeling butterflies.  I've been meeting people from a particular web site.  There's this lady at church who is VERY judgy.   She will ask, "What about that guy."  I usually mention someone else.  She always asks, "Why do you want to find a man."  It's none of her business.  She demanded last week I ask this one couple to take me home, she said she would if they didn't.  I was going to go ahead and pay for another cab.  But that couple took me.  

Back to Farrah, what a crock of shit!  She gives this speech like she's a bit entrepreneur. 

Bear barked when he heard thunder.  I comforted him.  It was just one rumble.  I'll post this.  

 Well, I thought I was engaged?  Guess not?  I have this $2,000 ring.  This dude is so damn cheap he thinks he can find a cheaper ring where he is.  What he doesn't know is these rings at this store come from EVERYWHERE.  It's not like it's an Effy ring with a style number.  I don't think.  I didn't look at the inside of it.  I put it on lay away last year.......things went to hell!  I lost my housing, my car, etc.  I was living in the woods.  I didn't have electricity for my phone to charge.  Actually, I just didn't walk inside this place to charge but it wouldn't have charged enough for me to use it and the weren't open every day. I discovered the store across the street that still had power on.  

I don't want to talk about hat.  It's 3:11 a.m. 09/30/25 and he basically hung up on me then put the messages on disappear.  That's a HUGE thing!!!  If we're going to do this immigration thing we need proof of relationship and those messages are perfect for that.  I asked him if he had an email address and he said no!  WHAT?  In all honesty, I'm NOT attracted to him!!!  I was attracted to the fact he said he'd fly me over, pay for it, etc.  I could be a house wife.  I've found out I need a visa.....I know I need to renew my passport.  He keeps asking me when I can come.  I HATE that he wants to see me on videocam!!!  It doesn't feel good that he obsesses over my looks!  I guess it's natural for your partner to think you're attractive.  My ex husband never told me he thought I was pretty or attractive.  He was from India so the whole marriage thing is totally different!  There's a saying, "First you get married, then you fall in love."  That usually happens.  We wanted to be married.  It was time, it was natural, so we did it.  BIGGEST destroyer of my heart!  Even though I went in it not necessarily, "head over heels."  I had all the feelings you have for a person. 

Guess I need to just keep things....cool and on the backburner!!!  What ever.  I do NOT like that I was hung up on and he put the messages on disappear!!!! FK him!!!  

 I LOVE Blogging, I love writing!  I must say before I write more that MANY times I may brush my hand across the post & it all disappears.  Oh, well.  Today I made a LOT of progress.  I'm in contact with several men!  Who knows how things will work out?  At this moment, 4:12 p.m. I feel very lonely!!!  I received my TUB from R.  She came to the door.  Instead of opening it, I asked if she could set it down & I'd get it because I'm undressed.  That and the place was/is a mess!  I'm so lonely!!!  Now I'm in my "room/apartment,"  I feel more relaxed.  I'm just dang lonely!!!  

Having a "partner" or two online is vastly different from having someone here, in person that I can talk to!  There is a woman I watch television with and she seems to be very interested in what I'm doing.  Before I forget, this man told me 

Ohhhh, weird I got a call from a person I NEVER get calls from!!!  We're talking....just like we used to...that's nice!!  I'm cutting her some slack!!! NO one's perfect!!! 

My gums are sore!!! I need to have my teeth cleaned!!!  I'm O.K.  Positive affirmations!!!  I am better than O.K.  I am loved, loving and will be happy forever!!  

I have a place to live that I can afford!  I am content!  This seems like such a small post!!!  I feel so full of anticipation about my future life!  I need to "clean..."  It's fine.  No problem.  I am so tired!!!  Thank GOD I have a comfortable bed, a door that locks and people around that car for me!!! 

 

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Great service. Want to say so much but don't want to come across "negative", so I'll just keep my thoughts to myself. FACTS: Some folks MUST sit at bus stops for hours in the hot sun with no protection. Don't know what's up with the building's utilities. Felt GOOD to me but I'm originally from Africa. FOLKS RUSHED the heck out of there after services due to the temperature. Kind of let's you know how people feel who don't have air conditioned houses or cars to be in! Imagine living outside for any extended period. Don't forget mosquitos! They bite now.

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 Thank God!  I have had wonderful news!!!  I am a bit worried, but I will be thankful in all ways!!!  I am able to talk to people!  A wonderful lady gave me what she didn't want from the foodbank!  She was worried there would be a problem, BUT I told her there would not.  After all, she got her food on her own  If she wants to give it to someone, that is fine!  And it is!  My dog and I are waiting on a package!  

We have no choice but to wait!   

End of World War II.  I don't know where my father was.  He was in WWII.  He has passed now.  He was born in 1925, served in the Navy in the SEGREGATED division, or whatever you call it!  He had a photo of all of them behind a 1930s plane!!  I don't still have the photo.  Don't know where it went. Anyway, I am feeling better.  Feeling GREAT today!!!  I felt weird yesterday!  Every day, my feelings are different!!!  I started out early today, so I wouldn't miss my delivery!  

I had * ask, "Why are you here!!?"  I started, talking about it, but..something interrupted me.  I MAY have a new place!!!  Anyway, I need to pair down things!  I am paying automatically on my storage unit!  I was late and I thought my stuff would just be gone!  I had the LAST of my wedding photos, the only ones I have because Wright Way Storage STOLD what I had.

Anyway, I don't want to spend a lot of time here.  I had great things happen.  This pretty girl, that this one guy who's suppose to be dating me said he thought she was pretty, she gave me this wig!! It was cute!  She said she hopes I'll "kill it like she thinks I will!"  People are so caring here, especially because they know people here are struggling!  No one comes here just for the hell of it!  

Joey asked something about me and Buddy.  I told him, "Buddy told me I'm not his woman."  Joey replied, "He sure spends a lot of time over there, with you."  I just laughed!  I asked if his girlfriend, X was around?  He said, "You don't see me shaking.  I've never had a girlfriend who could beat me up!!"  I said, "You must like it a little."  He said "At first...." I don't remember what he said after that but it was funny!  When I FIRST saw him, I gave him what was left of my chocholate pie.  He was so thankful.  NOW, after seeing him be short with me, and also the HUGE METH issue, I'm not interested in anyone addicted to any drugs!!!  I also don't want someone cheap!!!  

This couple just came in this NEW looking car.  I think they are here for the liquidation store...BUT who knows.  I am waiting on two packages!  

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I am so happy the Pope is an informed American!!!  So wonderful, bilingual!!  He left America & look at him now!  I am renewing my passport!  I can barely stand America!  People have to decide what sort of life they want!  I am alone.  That is fine but not what I want!