September 28, Saturday, 2024

I find myself in another situation where I am "losing my apartment."  This time, I had my furniture automatically taken out of my bank account.  I thought in the beginning, Oh, I can work & make that up....nahhhhh.  Eventually, a month rolled up with 0 money in the bank.  My car died.  I have no help!!!  I got the thought to take my car to the dealer for the 12 volt batter.  I still need the regular PRIUS battery.  

I am just SO lonely now!!!!  I actually used to feel like this on Sundays because I'd have to go to school on Monday and I hated school.  What I hated was being forced to do and learn things in a specific time period.  God, I know you love me and can do anything, therefore, I can do anything?  I want a man!!!  I want my OWN husband, someone who thinks I'm beautiful, smart, wonderful, beautiful!   I would like children too.  I think I'll probably have to try and get the children on my own!  I don't want to say my age but I'm OLD!!!!  

I saw Hoda Kotbe announce she's leaving the Today show.  It was so sad.  I can cry now!  I LOVE her spirit, energy!!  I LOVE the fact that she adopted her babies.  First the one THEN the OTHER to be a companion for the younger because she knows she won't be around forever!!!  I wish my MOTHER had done that.  She received a letter from the same Social Service Agency they bought me from.  I don't even know WHY she told me!  She said, "No."  Why even tell me!!! Shortly after, she left us all!!!   She came back for me like a dirty pair of underwear she still wanted to wear after she has someone wash them!