Really admire this woman's........determination! She married a Chinese man & calls herself
the First Black Lady of China. I don't
know how many thousands attended her wedding but it was no JOKE!!! Her husband saw her, fell in love, the rest
is history!!! Their wedding ceremony is
OFF THE HOOK!!! I cried after my
ceremony...….I wanted the FULL Indian wedding with the groom arriving on a
horse or elephant. I only realized that
AFTER we were looking out of the hotel room seeing other folks do that!! It was
still nice!!! Had TONS of people!! I
LOVE India!! My ex was so concerned when
I wanted to go out "alone" to find this restaurant that was listed on
the internet in the States. Well, it
wasn't there!!! India is a SNAP when you
live in certain areas. Simply say,
"Sector 14" to the autorickshaw driver, taxi driver, etc. I felt SO LOVED!!! I LOVED the attention!!! The bottom line is when you have
"money." You can go
anywhere. Ex used to tell me to stop
giving people money!!! I couldn't see
children with nappy hair & dirty clothes sit on the side of the road or on
plastic paper!!! I KNOW my role is to
use my HORRIBLE CHILDHOOD and to express the lover I never received! I can love easily and get my heart broken
daily! I still go on & choose to love! That is my gift. Look up Alma, or Ama. She is an India woman who HUGS
PEOPLE!!!! She books an event, people
line up for MILES to simply be embraced by her!!! People cry...….She was in
Michigan a few years ago!!! THIS is why
we are here! We are not
salamanders! We NEED physical
touch!!! Fiends, get it twisted and
think that means SEX, IT DOES NOT!!! If
my blood is to be shed shield the innocent, so be it!
I'm remembering at the American Embassy when I asked the
clerk for her NAME!!! Hubby laughed at
that late & said she went pale!! We
didn't do things 100 as they should....as a result, we were married THREE YEARS
LIVING ON Separate continents!!! It is
HARD to believe we've known each other for 20 years!!!! It doesn't even feel real!! I ask him all the
time if he "regrets leaving his country." He ALWAYS says, "No!!" I have to take him at his word! I don't say "regret," I say,
"If I had it to do over." If I
had it to do over, I'd stay in India!!!
Or let him use his PhD. in Theoretical Nuclear Physics to get a job
somewhere!! I'm from Y. S. My elderly
father was there so we went to live with him.
Both of us were at my father's bedside when he died in Greene Memorial
Hospital. I heard someone saying outside
of the door what was taking so long or something! I held my head HIGH, as high as a 5'1"
Black Woman could as we left my father's room!!! FUCK EM!!!!!
I wasn't going to let THEM see one tear!! One nurse was
"sniffing." My Hubby remarked
about that and & said, "I think she has allergies." Her demeaner didn't strike me as her giving a
shit that my father was dying before my eyes!
To watch another person die before you is a gift!! My Daddy waited until after his EX Wife and
Bastard Son left! I held his hand and
told him he was a good dad!!! Days or
maybe even weeks before, he cried as he asked what would happen to me!!! He was right to cry!!! He'd taken such good
care of me my entire life, I truly had the mentality and life experiences of a
child in some ways!! When you give a
sixteen year old two gas cards, an AMEX for emergencies, and basically cater to
them, it does make "maturation" a bit difficult! So at the age of 37, I was like an 18
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